trees

just got back from tanning downstairs ! the sun was out in full force. love it. i'm on holiday, i'm on holidaaaay. work at talking textiles ended first week of march and i've been living a nocturnal life thanks to jeremy. but its nice cuz he has his lincense now i don' t have to worry about catching the last bus ! and then i've been getting up 1-2pm almost everyday.
so i got to read a few more pages of Bruno Munari's book Design as Art. i'm reading it very slowly. this book is like tapas. each chapter is meant to be enjoyed slowly. and each chapter is short. but so thought-provoking. i'd read a page, put my book down and think...
here's a paragraph speaking of .. beauty found in formal coherence (as we see it in nature)

"A leaf has the form it has because it belongs to a certain tree and fulfils a certain function; its structure is determined by the veins which carry the sap, and the skeleton that supports it might have been worked out by mathematics... But if we saw a fig-leaf on a weeping-willow we would have the feeling that all was not well. It would lack coherence. A leaf is beautiful not because it is stylish but because it is natrual, created in its exact form by its exact function. A designer tries to make an object as naturally as a tree puts forth a leaf. He does not smother his object with his own personal taste but tries to be objective. He helps the object."

there was once i wondered why God didn't make plain boxes that released oxygen but instead, made trees. and not just one kind of tree, but millions of different kinds. God cares about aesthetics.

speaking of trees,
i dream of having a home where there'd be holes in my floor with trees growing out of it. and holes in the ceiling so it'd grow to the second floor and through the roof maybe. or if its a small tree it'd grow from the hole in the floor and stay on the first floor. the house would be built in a country with 4 seasons so i'd have trees for different seasons producing different things. mango trees, peach trees, lemon trees... and i'd pick fresh fruits from inside my house.
i told rach about this and she said its possible. it can be done ! she's in 2nd year of archi, so i believe her. i could apply this concept if i ever own a cafe/restaurant one day. people would order smoothies or something with fruit and i'd pick it straight from one of my trees...

i have a hard time grasping reality sometimes. my mind moves slower than the clock. and all that's happened in the past few months feels like a dream. my trip to japan, things that happened before and after that trip.

and right now, i'm trying to figure out what my heart wants without my mind's filter...